an update of a relentless journey.

I’m eating Menantea right at this moment. I’ve been losing so much weight lately but I’ve prepared for that since long ago. Before this crazy daunting moment comes, I’ve eaten so much to increase my weight by more than 5kg. I felt like a polar bear that eats crazily much to prep for a long long hibernation times in surviving the extreme weather. Regardless, life still goes on.

A little update:

2021 was the year I prepared fully for my master’s degree attempt. Not smooth sailing. But at least I keep going, collecting mistakes to learn from.

1. Jan 2021, the first time I took an IELTS class. Stopped for a while to look for a stable income to pay the bills. (yes, I do collect these master prep funds by myself 🥳), continued in Jun to August. Juggling a lot with my full-time job responsibility, barely hanging. But gratefully, still gain enough to apply to the unis that I want to attend.
2. Sept — Nov 2021 Chevening 1st attempt preparation. Totally least expect since my goal was to merely observe its process by participating directly. The announcement will be out on Feb 1st, 2022. Even if I do not get shortlisted, I’ll fetch my lessons to try another one next year.
3. Nov 2021, Took an EoR for my IELTS test since I was curious about my result. The overall result remained unchanged while my speaking increased to 7.0. I’ve decided not to take a retake test for my IELTS for a moment (idk if I change my mind later) since I have to focus on other things: applying for uni and fundings
4. December 2021 — Jan 2022, apply for 2 unis: The University of Glasgow for Msc Media, Culture, and Society program and the University of Edinburgh for MA Film Directing program. Either one is perfectly aligned with my academic background, experience, and career aspiration. The list will probably go on since I’m still curious about many programs I haven’t observed. While at the same time was wondering, why can’t be these incredibly cool programs available in Indonesia…?
5. Jan 2022 — relentlessly preparing for my first ever LPDP attempt: The substantial tests, essays, interviews, personal statements, and more, for this April/March 2022. Hope anything won’t slip and will go as planned. I really wish to go this year. But if God says otherwise, I would definitely believe that is the best way and I will be guided to a better destination. I deeply believe, I someday will get shortlisted. I someday will go. I just don’t know when and at how many attempts? 1st? 2nd? third? Nobody knows. What I do believe is that I will go eventually.

I really don’t want to leave a mark on how devastating 2021 was, I’ve been continuously talking about it here. But the first Jan 2022… was wrecked. I do not even want to write anything since the pain was hugely unbearable to feel and read in the future. The thing is, I completely surrender myself to God. I believe in every hardship comes ease. And this event I am currently experiencing will certainly flow me into a better place. Hopefully.

(Whoa. Just realized writing this down made me calm.)

Anyways, I should get going. Thank you for tuning in!