Feb 2, 2024wounds.“In another universe, I meet him when he was a child We play catch in the wood and as we play he tells me He isn’t allowed to cry But sometimes, the world hurts him and he doesn’t know what to do with all that pain So I give him shoulder he needs to cry on And he does He does until the tears are done Afterwards, I buy him ice cream and listen to his laugh The glowing warm laugh of a child who knows he is safe I wish someone could have done that for him Been a kind, safe place for the child he used to be Would it have made a difference? Would it have made a difference?”1 min read1 min read
Sep 10, 2022how heartbreak shaped the way I see love and relationship (for the better)(July Draft) The closest ones know I'm fighting an endless battle with heartbreak these past couple of months. But if I dive deeper into that, the cornerstone is that I have an unhealed childhood trauma of abandonment. That's why I declared that one more heartbreak would cause me to die…6 min read6 min read
May 22, 2022reasons I try to pursue master’s.Hi, my name is Tazki, and I'm currently preparing myself to get higher education abroad. And I decided to put myself out here to document how it goes, what I went through, how I overcame it, and what lessons I could fetch to continue further. …Masters Degree3 min readMasters Degree3 min read
May 20, 2022maybe the pain is supposed to be there.maybe the pain is supposed to be there. to fuel us, to remind us about our worth, and to help us constantly opt to improve ourselves in the prevention of not getting into the same mistake twice. so, we won't make another bad decision in life that would cost us…1 min read1 min read
Mar 4, 2022heartbreak, here we go again.To all the wounded people out there. Researchers have shown that the acute pain we feel while broken-hearted has the same brain reaction as when we get physically ill. It is real. Nothing should be ashamed of. A human feels pain; human bleeds. I’m still currently living my heartbreak. It…5 min read5 min read
Mar 2, 2022things about love I wish I knew sooner.(I dedicated this story to the 18 yo confused teenage girl of me for being brave to ever think about the happily ever after) I cringed myself up for writing this down now, but, girl.. you were18! What do you know about love and about it? Shit hurts. …3 min read3 min read
Jan 29, 2022an update of a relentless journey.I’m eating Menantea right at this moment. I’ve been losing so much weight lately but I’ve prepared for that since long ago. Before this crazy daunting moment comes, I’ve eaten so much to increase my weight by more than 5kg. I felt like a polar bear that eats crazily much…3 min read3 min read
Jan 29, 2022dear tazkiThis day and age, you may feel like the world is breaking down. You’ve been constantly fighting endless battle since the first day of 2020th. You faced thousands, thousands of challenges while gripping onto your poor little self. The little girl who simply dreams to become a decent human being…2 min read2 min read
Dec 28, 2021Words I wish I heard.It must be hard being on your own. This whole new transition is crazy and you’re allowed to crumble. You may cry, you may rest. Stepping into a completely different place would never be easy, but look how you’ve hung on for so long. Despite everything you’ve been through, you…1 min read1 min read
Nov 6, 2021a place where I couldn’t get hurt.It’s Drunk by Keshi, in case you want to tune in. If you feel like you’ve been pushed to see your worth as you’re always ended up with the not deserving person, well you’re not alone. Many people ask me to see my worth as if it is something that…Self Healing2 min readSelf Healing2 min read